When I was asked by Alena to write about my “HER”, I thought all I had to do was look into my mirror and “Tadaaa!", there she would be… standing before me… my “HER”. After having raised 2 beautiful daughters, still raising my 15 year old son, having gone through the throws of marriage, a difficult divorce, and more, I can stand tall, and feel good about the fact that I am still here, stronger than ever, more ambitious than ever, more beautiful than I’ve ever seen myself, enjoying freedoms I haven’t experienced in decades, and more important than anything I've just mentioned…I am loved. By Jesus, my family, true friends and a most wonderful man. But the reflection I see in the mirror does not completely reveal my “HER”. I see my “HER” in a slightly blurry picture, almost in focus. In a short time, the picture will clear, and I will be sharp and in full view. Amazing even to myself is that fact that I am still working on "HER".
Aside from going through the ups and downs of life, which everyone has to experience, my “HER” began to reveal herself after I made a few personal changes.
#1 was to clean my house of all negativity. That meant dirt, people, dead plants, chipped cups and plates, broken electronics, everything that was not alive, inoperable or in opposition had to go!
#2 was to change my environment. I painted my living room, bought new furniture, turned my back yard into a social environment and now I LIVE in my house. Prior to that I was a prisoner in my home, relegated to my bedroom (jokingly called the apartment) because I was unhappy with my life.
#3 was to make sure I remained relevant. Technology changed the way business is handled and if you are an entrepreneur, you had better make sure you know what’s going on. Since communications was my business and Obama said he’s giving away loans for school, then why not get degreed in marketing communications. (Still in progress)
Once the clutter was removed, I began to see myself again. My business began to take new form, and I could breathe. For once I could inhale deeply and exhale slowly. Everyday my “HER” became clearer and clearer. She continues to become clearer as I evolve. Although I am not acknowledging the image that I see in the mirror everyday as my “HER”, I do see “HER” within that image, and most importantly I feel “HER”. And because I feel "HER", I am content with matters of the heart, my thoughts are in alignment, and my actions compliment what’s in my mind and heart. The reason my “HER” is not completely clear is because she is an accomplished older woman. She has stories to tell of her life that are filled with all that was promised, because her dues are paid. I see her still about “HER” business of helping other people. I have always been about helping my fellow man/woman/boy/girl/dog/cat… LOL Some people have told me that it’s a problem of mine. I should get help because I’m always trying to help! LOL , but it’s rewarding to me.
I would imagine most women my age would have already become her “HER”, but I’ve still got things to accomplish. Although this gray haired beautiful woman is fuzzy in appearance, I see “HER” taking form. I see “HER” smile and it is revealing an even greater happiness. One that awaits me, as long as I stay focused and uncompromising.
Love and Respect to all women living and celebrating their “HER”story.
Peace and blessings,
H = Humbled
E = Eternally Grateful
R = Reinvented
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